I haven’t been very active on my blog recently so I thought now that I have time I would update you all on all that is happening recently!
I completed my assessment term and decided to do the optional Summer Show Term, which means stay in London for an extra 6/7 weeks to prepare for a showcase. This term has been quite a busy one for me as I decided that I would travel home to work on weekends, therefore somedays I would get an early 5am train to London to get to rehearsals for 9 and the other way round for work. It finally got exhausting as somedays I’d only be home for one day or in London for a few hours and then would get the train home.. So, it was a very busy and confusing process but completely worth it! I got to earn money and I got to watch my sister perform since every time she has recently performed I haven’t been there.
Not only have I been travelling around, working and rehearsing but I was also having to pack my flat up as I was moving out. For my next year in London I am moving in with my two friends into a flat across the road from my college which is great! Yesterday I moved in, using Sainsbury’s trolleys to walk my stuff to my new flat.. Seemed like a good idea until we realised there were stairs and busy roads.. So.. Clearly there was a lot going on so it was very hard to get a chance to write blog posts. However, I am sitting in my new flat all unpacked and settled in and honestly feel very calm and relaxed for the first time in a while, sometimes you need to take a step back from a hectic life to appreciate it all!
Next week I will be travelling the USA! I have been sorting and planning and I will be travelling to New York and Los Angeles with my mum and sister! EXCITED ISN’T THE WORD! I recently travelled 5 states in America in February with Jake, I haven’t wrote a blog post about it yet but will be writing up posts about all the different places that I have visited, so keep posted!!
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Until next time…
So.. Today I decided to write about something which is completely off the topic of my blog however needed to be said. As some of you may know I’m currently training in a Musical Theatre college so there are always going to be injuries, illnesses, tears and tiredness but along with all of that are the most incredible adrenaline rushes you get whilst actually putting all of that training into the final performance. Some say the ‘training’ years are the best years of your life (career wise) and so far I cannot disagree.
However, Assessment term is here again! The time when every performer reaches their maximum stress level and is in constant need of confidence boosters otherwise the assessment term can truly break you. This term we have had over 16 assessments which are a variety from performing to written examinations. So the pressure has really been on..
I noticed this term that a lot of my fellow performers (me included) were getting upset or angry a lot more than they usually do, over the smallest mistakes. Thing is we aim for perfection at all times so when things go wrong it tends to take it’s toll.
When it comes to these weeks of assessments everyone tries as much as they can. Even when they come out of an assessment the first thing they say are the mistakes that happened, ‘I messed up on that turning sequence’ ‘My voice cracked completely!’ And so many more.. All of these negatives when in reality we need to think about the positive things that happened and the improvement that has happened during training. After all, when someone asks how well an assessment went, then surely the attitude or view to have is that it went as well as it could of under assessment conditions. Everything changes once your nerves and adrenaline kick in. Even though you’ve done a perfect triple pirouette in class, you may fall out of one in an assessment. Things happen. The assessment is done and there is no other way that it could of gone. So.. there is no need to focus on it. Move onto the next and focus on how to better your performance for the next one.
In other words.. there is a way to look at specific things in life. You can upset yourself because not everything went as planned or you can think to yourself.. There was no other way that could of gone because it’s already happened and it’s now in the past and cannot be changed. I truly believe so many people are harder than they should be on themselves, everyone’s their own worst critique but there comes a time when even your own critiques are putting you down. Many of us do it, repeat everything that goes wrong in our heads rather than the rest of the things that went correctly, or watch videos and critique them personally even though they may not be anything wrong with them. We get into the zone of finding the negatives in each performance and although this is good to analyse and to know what we have done wrong in order to perfect it sometimes there is a need to appreciate what good things have been done.. Sometimes it’s good to ignore the devil on your shoulder and just enjoy doing what you’re doing even though you might have made a few mistakes here and there..
There are days that get harder for everyone, one day you could of had the best day and the next you could be crying and wanting to eat as much junk food as possible. Things happen and change daily. Surround yourself with people who aren’t just going to pity you but pull you back up and tell you to get on with it (in the nicest of ways)… sometimes you need that kick to remind yourself that there is no need to feel sorry for yourself because although you’re having a bad day or week.. it will change. After all, most of the time the things that happen now, you probably won’t remember them in a few years.
I know this can be seen as one big rant.. but not all people understand what performers go through on a daily basis. When people ask what we’re studying, some may think of it as just dancing around like a ballerina and singing some songs. But there are so many more elements to training to be the best in the industry and there are never any ‘easy’ days. But before I start a new topic to blog about I’ll leave with this one! Maybe next time you may be able to see the inside to what training in one of the Uk’s leading performing arts colleges can really be like..
Until next time..
– Giovana Braia!